Hello! Welcome to my blog, I would like to share my story seeing how EVERYONE has one. I think I have had a interesting life and would like to share some of my ups and downs and who knows maybe help someone in the process.
Always remember that you do have a spot in this world and that God has put you right where you need to be. I am a very lucky girl to be alive and I do believe in miracles big and small. So let's GO!!
I was born 2 months premature and was a very tiny baby, (3lbs 14oz) the doctors told my mother to call a priest in because I wasn't going to make it! Just what a mother wants to hear right? I was in the hospital for almost 2 months and from what my mom has told me the nurses would FLICK the bottom of my feet when I would stop breathing to "kick start" me again. Now let's fast forward a few year. I meet a very sweet and amazing girl when I was about 9. She and I had a lot in common both had blue eyes, blonde hair and looked a lot alike. Her and I were the best of friends and one day our parent's got to talking. I was born on 6/26 and she was born on 6/27. Weird right .....it get's crazier! After our parents saw that connection they started talking about out births. Come to find out they ran into each other at the hospital on the day(s) we were born. Turns out that my mom was more dilated and she was given the last room at the hospital and (E.J.) was sent to another hospital. This is the first moments of my life and I was already sent on a path for a MIRACLE. When E.J. was about 10 she kept getting really sick and was in the hospital a lot. When she was 12 she and her family moved to Arizona (her father was a pastor) to help with a church in need out there. Now this is a little off topic but you have to understand my mom at this point..... She always told me the best time to "talk" to someone is in the car because they have NO WHERE to go. So true. So whenever I was in trouble she would wait till we were in the car to let me know. One day we were on the way to school and she told me she needed to talk to me about something. I started to rack my brain.. did I do something wrong, was I in trouble?? The anticipation was driving me crazy! I just wanted her to yell at me and get it over with. She told me she would let me know after school so now I had ALL day to worry about what I was in trouble for. When she picked my up after school she told me that E.J. was in the hospital again and that she was dying!! I felt like I was having a out of body experience and could see myself crying and kicking the dashboard. At that point my mom had to pull over and get me to calm down. I couldn't understand how a 12 year old was about to lose her life when she hadn't even got to start it yet. She did pass away from AIDS from a blood transfusion that was given to her at birth. IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME within a matter of moments or events not known. I still wonder from time to time why, why am I still here? Because I have a story and so does E.J. She may not be alive to tell it but a part of her lives on and I would like to think she is still with me. I have had many times in my life when I have asked/questioned why I was the one to make it. I have put many family and friends through hard times while I tried to figure out my life and thankfully the ones who really care for me are still by my side. I have a beautiful message from E.J. before she passed away that I would like to share but am waiting for her families permission before I do. Until then Remember that EVERY day is a gift and there is a reason you are here. I have had many bad days in my life but when you look at the big picture you have to remember you have a purpose and one day it will click and you will know what it is. God is hearing your prayers it just might not be the answer you are looking for .. J.J. Hart
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