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Hair Color....... I just love that word it makes me all warm and fuzzy.  I am a blonde...wait for it...naturally.  When I was about 13 I colored my hair for the first time to a light (rinse out) brown and was so afraid my mom would flip a gasket that I washed my hair for about two hours straight to get the color out.  I pretty much at that point and time sold my soul to the devil!!  Relax not really. However my eyes opened up to how hair could really change how people look at you. To me it is JUST hair,  it doesn't change WHO I am, but it is amazing to me how people will judge you just by your hair color or the way you wear it.  The summer before my freshman year of high school I had lost a lot of weight and wanted a snazzy new hair cut to go along with it.  So I went to a family friend to get it done.  I had jokingly said that if I didn't like it I would shave my head.  My hair was pretty long and wanted a shorter cut (copying a friend of mine's haircut) and she told me that it would not look the same since I have stick straight hair, I said I understood yet as soon as she was finished I HATED it.  I went home ran to the downstairs bathroom with a pair of scissors and a bic. razor and whacked that shit off!!!  When I came upstairs my mom just looked at me and said what were you thinking???  My mom knew that I didn't really want to have my head shaved and that I am VERY impulsive and now I just had to deal with it.   At this time I would like to add that my mom had looked into extensions for me yet at that time they were still new and super expensive and she just couldn't afford them for me.  I LOVE my momma she is the best.  Anyways  I have to say it really throws people off, at first they think you have you hair pulled back until you turn around and then all of the sudden they think a few things,  apparently it made me a dike, a gang banger, or that I was a lost soul.  No I just didn't like my hair cut and in my twisted mind it was a fresh start!  I almost about shit bricks when Brittney Spears did it.  Cause I have been there done that so I knew she wasn't crazy (well maybe a little lol)  but once again it is just hair.  I have had short hair, long hair, blonde, brown, black, and most recently red (lovin me some ging)  I am still the same person I just like to express myself with my hair.  Some people like to shop and no one judges them for that!  I am not hurting anyone by changing MY hair.   So just to let ya know how blonde I really am, and this is really embarrassing for me to admit, but I had bangs and wanted to start wearing my hair w/o them, well my dumb ass didn't know that all you had to do was part them in the middle to get "rid" of them, instead I shaved them off.  OK stop laughing, I know, not the brightest crayon in the box,  so I was kinda rockin a mullet and trying to explain to people why you have no bangs now. I mean I didn't have bangs anymore so it worked right?  There was another time that I colored my bleach blonde hair to a fire engine red and missed a huge spot in the back of my head.  Instead of getting another box of red I thought it would be best to bleach it back to blonde.  NOT a good idea my hair was bozo the clown orange.  I then went back to the store and bought a brown color and it turned my hair grey FML so I got back in the car and bought a dark brown to which it turned it a mousy brown (it was gross) however I had to deal with it because my hair was starting to fall out seeing as how all of that was done within 24 hours.    That was when I was younger, now I am 29 and holding (like my momma) and I have gotten a lot better about going to the salon and having it done, however once in a while I get a hold of my own hair and will jack it up because it is a Monday and I heard a good song on the radio and ooohhhh I should dye my hair today!!  I have slowly been getting my hair to a copper color and I LOVE it!  I went to work one day and a customer of mine made a comment about my hair and how he likes it blonde and I need to do this and that and blah blah blah,  finally (and for the first time to him) stood up for myself and said "ya know if  I were to worry about how everyone else wanted me to look I would be miserable"  SHUT HIM DOWN  but it is true don't worry about what anyone else thinks.  Let your freak flag fly.  If it makes YOU happy and it isn't hurting anyone what does it really matter.                     J.J. Hart